Birthday Sex

"you kiss me so sweetly...taste just like hershey"

.all i have to say.

Art at its Best

Lady Gaga.. Paparazzi

This is the epitome of art work in music.
This is what I've been missing. The industry has been missing for awhile now
this is iconic.
GOLD
I need a celebrity with a sense of who she/he is not just someone who puts out music and keeps it going.
Someone to admire..not admire they're stylist.

This is something more.

I love her.

:) <--- me after the first time I saw it.

JERKINNN!!

...I saw this through ilybean!!!
WHEN I FIRST SAW THE VIDEO...

IWA SLIKE WHAT IN THE FRUITY TUCAN SAM LOOPS IS THIS NONSENSE??

KIND LIKE THE FIRST TIME I SAW THE CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP.
BUT JUST LIKE THAT DANCE..IM ADDICTED TO THIS NEW MOVEMENT.

NU FAV SONG.

,MISS ME KISS ME LICK ME - COLD FLAMEZ....

I LIKE THE BLOGS I FOLLOW... I GET GOOOOD SHIT OUT OF IT.

...NOT ALL YALL THOUGH.

SOME OF YALL N-GGA REAL BORING.
JUST BLAND.

LIKE ...CLEAR PEOPLE CHICKEN.
NO NONSENSE..

:]

JERKIN!!

OMGGGG

WATCH IT WHILE U CAN..... MY DUDE IS SUPAH DUPAH !!
LMMFAOO

VIA..THEYBF

UGHH SASHA...UR LAME!!!!!

SO I OFFICIAL CONSENT TO BEING THE ULTIMATE LAME!.

IN THE SENSE THAT I PREACH ALL THIS GOOD SHIT ABOUT .

."YEA DONT BEG FOR A NIGGA!"
AND
"IF HE DONT CALL U FUCK THAT DUCHE BAG"
AND
"OOO I GOT FLOWS TOO... U JUST ONE OF MANY!!"

...I AM ASHAMED TO SAY ALL THAT LOGIC WAS KNOCKED DOWN. JUST LIKE KERI HILSON... I WAS KANYE SMASHED TO PIECES.! >:[

OKAY SO ITS LIKE THIS..REMEMBER WHEN I GAVE YALL A LIL EXCERPT OF ME AND A BOY FROM HIGH SCHOOL HOOKING UP AND KICKING IT??

WELL SATURDAY I WENT OUT WITH MY GUY D. AND FOR SOME REASON THE WOMAN IN ME DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO UNLEASH WOMANLY FURRY UPON THIS NIGGA.

FOR THE TIME BEING WE CAN CALL HIM MUPPET.

HERE'S THE CONVO. VIA TEXT MESSAGE!

ME: U KNOW U A CLOWN FOR REAL RIGHT?

MUPPET: YEA [BLAH BLAH SOME SMART COMMENT...FORGOT B/C ME IN A RAGE DELETED ALL HIS MESSAGES TODAY!!!!]

ME: WHY YOU HAVEN'T HIT ME UP??

MUPPET: I WAS GOING TO BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY..

*ROLLS EYES*

ME: U NEED A TOPIC TO TALK TO ME?

.....5 MINUTES OF NO REPLY.. [IN THE TEXTING WORLD THAT'S FOREVERMORE]

ME: DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A F**KING FLOW A**HOLE...
[A LITTLE BRASH?]

MUPPET: DON'T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT PLEASE.

ME: DON'T TALK TO ME AT ALL.

AND THE ACADEMY AWARD FOR OVERLY DRAMATIC GOES TO!!

BUT I HAD GOOD CAUSE MAN!

LAST TIME I SAW MUPPET WAS THURSDAY RIGHT?

HE HASN'T SPOKEN TO ME, HIT ME UP, OR ANYTHING UNTIL SATURDAY WEN I INITIATED IT.

TOADY'S TUESDAY AND HE STILL DIDN'T HIT ME UP OR ANYTHING... SMH

SOOOO

LIKE THE LAME P**SY I AM... I HIT HIM WITH A TEXT.
UGHHH I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE.
LIKE THERE WERE SO MANY SIGNS.
IT WOULDN'T SEND FOR MAD LONG... AND I KEPT TYPING IT WRONG.
THE GODS WERE TRYING TO SAVE ME THE EMBARRASSMENT BUT NOOOO
I JUST HAD TO DO IT.
AND WHAT MAKES IT WORSE. 10 MINUTES LATER NO REPLY.. THEN I SENT ANOTHER TEXT.

"WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS BITCH?" *SIDE EYE*..

I KNOW I FEEL LIKE THE ONLY DICK FACE BUT URGGHKLE.. I CAN'T HELP IT :[

HONEST TO GOD THAT WAS THE ONLY SEMI-....RELATIONSHIP??? I HAD EVER.
EVER!!! AND IT LASTED A GOOD WEEK.

OMG.

I AM A TOTAL AND COMPLETE LAME ASS BIT*H.
SMH I TOLD MY SIS AND SHE AGREES.

*POUTS*

AND THE WORST PART IS.
HE NOT EVEN THAT SERIOUS!!!
I COULD UNDERSTAND IF HE LOOKED LIKE...CHRIS PINE >:]

LIKE FOR ME TO EVEN BE FEIGNING OR REALLY SWEATING OVER
HE SOME REGULAR NIGGA..
IF NOT KIND WEIRD LOOKING.

BUT HE GOT GAME..AND APPARENTLY MUCH FLOW.
[HE MADE THAT APPARENT WHEN HE WAS TALKING
ON THE PHONE TO THEM WHILE I WAS DEPARTING.]

...ITS TOMORROW.. AND HE STILL DIDNT HIT ME BACK. I HAVE A FEELING IM GOING TO SEE HIM TOMORROW... AND IMMA BE A REAL SNOOTY BISH ABOUT IT.

...IF I DONT BREAK DOWN RIGTH THERE ON THE MCDONALDS FLOOR.. :[


OUTT.....LAME BISH..

BLAME IT [ECONOMY]

LOL I WAS OVER AT DEADAZZWRONG AND FOUND THIS LIL GEM ADMIST ALL THE ROCKS..

LMAO

I WOULD DEFINETLY PUT THIS ON MY TOUCH.

TUFFF!!!

OOO BTW.. DUMB HAPPY NOW.

I GOT ANOTHER FOLLOWER

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA...MY PLANS FOR BLOGGER DOMINATION SHALL ONCE AGAIN COMMENCE!!!!!

YOU On Point Tip?:: Chris Pine

CHRIS PINE..

Chris Pine is an American Actor born in Los Angeles California
...MY NU LUVAHH

He was in Smokin' Aces and of course DUH... Star Trek.

I'm mad I didn't notice this sex pistol in Smokin' Aces though... probably because he was playing a redneck, skin head nazi.. ugh what a turn off. :\

I like him as an alien bettah !!

"Yo Once Again Phife!"

WALKING VERSUS DOIING STUFF MANG..

I HAD MEANT TO POST THIS AWHILE BACK BUT, ONE THING LED TO ANOTHER AND I FORGOT.

IT WAS A SUBJECT THAT IS TOUCHY AND WHEN PEOPLES REAL FEELINGS AND PERSPECTIVES ARE LET OUT. ITS ALMOST TABOO TO EVEN THINK ABOUT THINKING THAT WAY.

ANYWAY TO THE POINT!.

I'M NOT SURE BUT LETS SAY A WEEK BACK A FELLOW BLOGGER HAD HIT ME UP ON MYSPACE USING THAT I.M. THING.

ANYWAY I WAS ASKED IF I HAD GONE TO THE AIDS WALK?

I REPLIED.

ME: NO...FOR WHAT?

THEY WERE LIKE WHAT?? TO BENEFIT PEOPLE WITH AIDS AND HELP FIND A CURE.!

ME: ....AND?

BASICALLY LEMME BREAK THIS DOWN.

I HOLD CERTAIN THINGS TRUE TO ME AND I WILL STAND FOR A CAUSE I BELIEVE IN.

I WILL ALSO PARTICIPATE IN SOMETHING I BELIEVE WILL BENEFIT THOSE WHO NEED IT.

AS FOR THAT AIDS WALK... I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO PAERICIPATE.

DONT THINK IM CRUEL BUT I JUST BELIEVE THAT IF WE CAN SPEND THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS ORGANIZING IT AND ADVERTISING IT, MERCHANDISE AND ALL THESE OTHER MIDDLEMEN THAN WHY CAN'T WE JUST USE ALL THE MONEY WE JUST BLEW FOR ALL OF THAT.

AND SEND IT INTO THESE LABS SO THEY CAN FIND A CURE?

PUT IT LIKE THIS.

PEOPLE HAVE BEEN WALKING FOR AIDS FOR MANY YEARS.

AND EVEN AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS, AFTER ALL THOSE BILLIONS OF DOLLARS.

WE STILL DON'T HAVE A CURE???

OR AT LEAST A SUBSTITUTE NOTHING AT ALL? NO KIND OF PROGRESS ??

I FEEL LIKE ITS NONSENSE THEN.

MAYBE IF IT WAS MORE OF A HANDS ON WAY OF HELPING WHERE IM ACTUALLY SEEING AND DOING THINGS THAT I CAN SEE FOR MYSELF IS HELPING.

LIKE FEEDING THE HUNGRY AND HOMELESS OR GIVING AWAY CLOTHING TO FAMILIES IN NEED, OR SENDING MONEY GRAMS TO THOSE WHO NEED IT SO WHEN THEY OPEN THEIR MAIL THEY HAVE A CHECK FOR WHATEVER SUM OF MONEY. SO THEY CAN CASH IT!!

LIKE I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WHERE I CAN SEE THE PROGRESS OF MY HELP.

BUT IF YOU GONNA HAVE ME WALKING UP AND DOWN MANHATTAN FOR HOWEVER LONG AND ALL I GET TO SEE IS SWEATY STINK PEOPLE, AND CRUSHED UP DIXIE CUPS, THEN NO!

IF ALL I GET TO SEE IS THE 11'0CLOCK NEWS DOCUMENTING ...PEOPLE WALKING!! THEN NO

I'M NOT WALKING FOR SHIT!

FUCK THAT.

TO ME IT SEEMS LIKE A DAMN GIMMICK...

LIKE SOME TOM FOOLERY .

IM NOT KNOCKING THOSE WHO DO DO THESE EVENTS, FOR THEM I AM HAPPY IF IT MAKES THEM HAPPY.

JUST DONT COME AT ME LIKE IM WIERD.. BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO NOT WALK. AND YOU DONT LIKE MY BELIEFS

THATS HOW I AM.

I DONT KNOW HOW SASHA FIERCE WOULD REACT BUT... THIS IS HOW SASHA DOES IT.

I'D RATHER BE ON THE COMITTEE WHO HELPS FIND THE CURE, OR BE THE NURSE IN THE HOSPITAL THAT TENDS TO THE SICKLY.

THAN WALK A BLOCK AND GO HOME.

...I THINK IM JUST MORE OF A HANDS ON TYPE OF GIRL...

ME SIGNING OUT...

Palladium

I have a new obsession..

To try and find these sneakers in my sizee...

Palladium Baggy Leather
not necessrily in this color..i first laid eyes on them in a nice denim blue.

BUT NEWAYS
these shits are tough.. and me having a size 11 foot :\
All things in this world are definetly made harder.
but to no avail will i give up hope!!

Spock signing out!

STAR TREK [REVIEW]

...IN A SHOPPING MOOD, BUT I'M TRYING TO CURB MY HABIT.

YESTERDAY I WENT TO SEE STAR TREK.

NOW I DON'T REMEMBER EXACTLY THE SHOW.
BUT I BELIEVE THIS MOVIE DID IT JUSTICE 10X OVER.
THIS IS THE MOST INSPIRATIONAL FLICK I HAVE SEEN IN A WHILE.
THERE ARE MANY DOUBLE MEANINGS IN THIS FLICK AND A LOT OF BIAS' AND STEREOTYPES BUT BESIDES THE POINT.
THE MOVIE WAS SO GREAT.

IT LEFT ME WANTING TO GO AND WATCH THE ORIGINAL STAR TREK.

IT WAS GREAT HOW CHRIS PINE PORTRAYED CAPTAIN KIRK AS A SMART ASS WHO COULD BACK HIS SHIT UP!.
LIKE HE WASN'T ALL TALK THE KID HAD A BRAIN AND WAS SO TALENTED.
I KNOW I SOUND LIKE THE ONLY GEEK, AND FUK IF I AM ONE.
AND MAYBE I'M GETTING A LITTLE TOO INTO IT BECAUSE I WAS BLUNTED WHEN I WATCHED IT.
SO OF COURSE NOW I'M SEEING IT...like.. seeing it.

BUT YEAH I DEFINITELY DO RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE. EVEN IF YOUR NOT A FAN.
ITS GOOD STUFFING.

IITE

OOOO SEXY

OOO and another thing...

WHY WAS ZOE SALDANA EXTRA PIGEON IN THIS MOVIE. LIKE SHE WAS JUST ALL UP AND UNDER SPOCK. FOR NO REASON!! NOT EVEN LIKE HE WAS ASKING OR SOMETHING.

I DONT WANNA SPOIL IT FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVEN'T SEEN IT, BUT REALLY I WAS WATCHING IT LIKE.. REALLY BITCH??
IDK MAYBE ITS JUST ME.
...this was the only one i could find :]

Get Familiar

WOW!!

CHESTER FRENCH MIXTAPE... IS MY SHIT.

HONESTLY I CAN'T STOP LISTENING IT REMINDS ME OF QUEEN...MEETS...BEATLES....MEETS....OUTKAST.

AND THE SKIT ONLY ADD TO THE MUSICAL AWESOMENESS...

I FUCKS WITH IT MANHG!!!

SOME OF THE SONGS I BE FEELING.

- NERD GIRL STARRING JANELLE MONAE

-JIMMY CHOOS

-I'M SO TALL STARRING BUN B. TALIB KWELI MICKEY FACTZ

-IM SORRY STARRING WALE

....XXXXXXXXXX...

YEA... W.E.

SO YEA I'VE BEEN FALLING OFF ON MY BLOGGING STUFF ..
BUT DONT TAKE IT PERSONAL.

I'VE BEEN GIVING EVERYONE THE COLD SHOULDER :[

ALOTTA LOTTA DRAMA HAS BEEN ENSUING THESE PAST WEEKS.
THIS HOE AT WORK MUST HAVE SOME FAULTY EQUIPMENT IN HER BRAIN BECAUSE SHE IS REALLY TRIPPING.. ON SOME.. SASHA BOUT TO SMACK A BITCH!. [BTW THIS ISNT B.G.W. ..ITS PURPLE CRAYON TRICK.]

ANOTHER THING IS, I RECENTLY STARTED TALKING TO A BOY FROM MY HIGH SCHOOL.
BUT, I'M FEELING AS IF THIS BOY IS MORE OF A "GET AROUND" TYPE NIGGA AND I'M NOT IN FOR THAT "BIG LOVE" BULLSHIT.

I REALIZE MY CURSING IS GETTING OUT OF HAND.
EHH

-MY LEFT EAR HAS BEEN RINGING FOR A MINUTE

-I GOT INTO A BIG ASS TIFF WITH ONE OF MY CLOSETS FRIENDS.

-I SPENT 200 IN A DAY N IT WASNT EVEN NUFFIN I REALLY WANTED :\

I CANT GET MY PHONE TILL JUNE 7TH N I BET U ANYTHING SOME OL BULLSHIT GOIN HAPPEN WHERE I CANT GET A PHONE AT ALL

UGHHHHHH....


BUT ON ONE GOOD NOTE.
THE CHESTER FRENCH AND CLINTON SPARKS MIXTAPE IS POPPIN DUN!!!

I'm Still Fly

I know I know I'm shameless

I posted this SOLELY because I see Drake for a good minute.
I mean I am a little tired of all his nutcrackers [i.e. Drake is the BEst Rapper EVER!!]
yea..

He just look really good in this video thats why lol.

Big Page - I'm Still Fly [ft. Drake]



..another thing.. why do these girls look hella crosseyed... eww

Changing my Mind

...I'm starting to enjoy Asher...



did u see his version of D'Angelo

**Lmaoo**

good stuff

"...Problem with these other niggas they aint never real."

....
mood: PISSED!!!

location: BEDROOM

music on: Drake - So Far Gone


WTFFFFFF Man
I swear to God why are you so damn dense?????

We've been friends since what? I was a Sophomore and you a Senior
and you still don't fucking get it.


Yes that is what I was thinking after having an hour long argument with a long time friend.
At first it started out with a back and forth disagreement with Eminem's new album Relapse.

My view: The Album is Trashtastic.. it has no emotional content and it doesn't do a thing for its fans other than "smoove lyrical content"

His view: Its "Slim Shady...Eminems relapse back into his Slim Shady Days."

We were literally going back and forth about the topic for a good hour and change.

AS you know if you are arguing and you are really passionate it stems from deeper feelings.

I'm trying to explain that its not good because he's been gone for like 5 years and he comes back with this nonsense. He doens't give any kind of outlet or window for us the fans to see what has been up.
Just some bullshit bout 3am SMH


He's cold and no emotion. and Thats how I've been feeling about one of my closets friends.

He is supposed to be a good friend of mine but I can't help feeling as if the boy is afraid to push boundaries. Come out of his safe zone and try something new.

I didn't think I could become this pissed off at a person for being so damn timid.

It boils me , gets under my skin, annoys me.
If you can't get angry or tell me how your feeling, or let me know "Hey..that was a real fucked up thing you did"... Then

I really see no point in a friendship that only I am working towards.

Im trying to explain the point of him exploring his feelings.
His excuse is..

Thats how I am..

Thats how u are?

Thats whats gonna end up having you alone and lonely.
smh

Its sad to think that I seemed to be the crazy one while we were talking.
Like he really didnt see where I was coming from.
and it pissed me off

TA RAHTED!!!!
ugh. I was about to toss the damn macbook through the window.

{gladly I do have a brain.}

But when the conversation ended I had time to reflect.

I KNOW I KNOW
its a long ass post. But I'd appreciate it you would at least skim it. LOL

I just needed to vent it. ...ugh

I feel better.

Time for cake. and an episode of
DollHouse.

peaces...!!!!!

Very Damn Creepy

Very Recently I have been getting these uber creepy messages on myspace from random men, from random places.

Like... Istanbul, and Germany, and Hackensack.
You know strange places.

and Its always these creepy ass on liners like..

"hey Sexy I like your icon" and shit like that.

I never responded because I don't like to be serial killed. !! >:[

seee.... shit like this.
SMH I really hate myspace for this shit.
Im about to delete it ...

oo yea Happy Mothers Day Man :]

Out n About

Wah Gwan Paparazzi
*Rihanna Voice*

Bum Dum Di Dum Dum Dum Di Dum Dum

extra random I know but I like how she looks here.
sidenote* her song for Transformers.
Is truly terrible.
and If they play it in the theatre I will throw my popcorn fiercely at whoever is next to me.

...bitch

Granma Got WiFi

I came up here to Mt. Burnin to visit my Grandmother.
Havent been to her apartment since her birthday in June.
& I've been saying I was gonna come spend time with her for a minute now.
SO Im finally here

YAAY!.

I got lost.

and rode the good ol' bus with alot of old people.
YUM!

..Being with her brings back nostalgic feelings.
She always always ALWAYS has her place in check. No matter the circumstances of the actual building. *i.e. Roaches, Crackheads, Dirty lil' Hood Booger kds.
Her place looks like something out of a Martha Stewart Magazine. {does she even have one?}

I had the feelings of when I was younger n me and my siblings all came down for either the weekends or spend the summer with her.

It was definetly hell, when we were younger but looking back. It was definetly worth it.


Have You Noticed that, people who spent alot of time with thier GRandparents or Older Folk in genereal.
Tend to have actual "Common Sense"

I noticed that in most of the people who I know who are good at thier job, or give really good advice, or are just IDK... wiser than their age, have grown up around their elders.

It says alot. I mean when I was younger I used to DRED going to visit G-ma... cause she was miserable.. :\
but now that I'm older I see why she used to act like that and it touches ma heart :]

...Via
G-Ma WiFi.
MacBook.

"...don't say the car topless..."

I see Cassie just full of surprises now-a-days.

She has umm.."leaked" i think the word is now
pics of her on the net.

Butt ass nakey.

for all you Cassie fanatics lol.

I'd rather look at those than her half bald head I'll tell you that much.

Cassie...

Piano Lessons

Yea.. I know I'm a little late..
but I downloaded his mixtape yesterday.

I'm feeling it.

Piano Lessons (Prod. Black Milk) - Colin Munroe & Joel Ortiz

don't bet on me I'm a long shot.

Chheeessee

Air Yeezy's = Dirty homosaipiens.

Ya'll dirty...

Waiting for Yeezys from kwest on Vimeo.

...these dickheads missed school and have been camping outside across the street since tuesday or maybe even earlier.

There is no bathroom or a gas station nearby to wash up the goodies...
and they're doing this for a pair of sneakers, that they are gonna rock all ugly.
and then fuck em up because they actually "wore" them.
and I bet you any amount that there is gonna be that one pum pum face that chooses to buy two.
One for display and one for wearing.

....i can't stand these niggas.

Eh, Eh

I was here for a good minute trying to figure out why the fuck my mac web browser was showing websites as if it were an IBM computer or some shit.
went to yahoo answers.. and

Ta-Da! found an answer...
beacause Safari is cold poop
and Firefox is the whip cream to my chocolate ice cream =D

Now I actually want to blog .

On to more important news.

So I had gone to see a "friend" I haven't seen since I was like 17 18 right.
N it was good to see this "friend" I was happy..
He ended up telling me he had needed some cash, just so he could get back on his feet.
Hes starting a new job and he didnt have any cash flow.. w.e.

So I lend him the odd amount and told him we could kick it that saturday.


Saturday came, he hit me up like
"oh Hey... babe when are we going to chill?"

I'm like Im taking a nap Ill hit you up at 5.
I wake up 6:27 and he sent me like a ka-jillion messages on aim.

Hes like ooo lets chill.. ets go to JC Penny and cop some cargos.
Mind you .. I just lent the nigga some 40 odd cash so..
WTF right?

I told him I'm not buying him shit, I just wantedd to chill.

"ahaha you funny nah for real tho copp me some cargos"

.... are you deaf?
No.
I have no cash for you, on top of that you owe me money so what do I look like>>? a fool?

The conversation gets deeper and I become agitated by how the nigga acting like a straight up jerk off.. so I say nite and stop talking to him!

Now he goes and says something I never heard.
"Ight then lata"


_____________________

um excuse me??
Its not like it hasn't happened before, but t6he crazy part is..
He hasn't hit me up since

Now are you telling me..my ass got douped?
bamboozled...
Conned???

TUH!

Let the rest of the week past and I don't get a hello.
let the rest of this month pass and I don't see my 40 odd cash flow.
Let this nigga even try n work me for my cash.


It'd be a sad day in the Bronx for a tall black Jamaican motherfucker I'll tell you that much.

YES!!!

OMG how i missed her short hair..
work it out mama Halle :]

Tattooooo

So last week sunday i believe i had gotten a tattoo.
It was a family affair. Me, my sister, n my mom had all gotten a tattoo done,. N on the left side too.. What a coincidence.!!


I had gotten a lightning bolt behind my ear. (which even though was just an outline, hurt like shit!!)
Mom got a symbol which meant grounded in ths middle of a weed leaf lol.( very spur of the moment)
And Shanna at the last minute got mom's name tattooed on her wrist.

We had gone to Concrete Jungle on 125th. It was a whole lot of African braiding shops and the whole decor of the parlor itself was lame!!
Mad treez n shit smh

But the artist were great.
Shannah and I were tattooed by a tall guy named Joel.
And mom got hers done by Spyder


Im upset I cant show yAll the pics I took on account of I uploaded them to my macbook and they all got deleted because I restarted the whole system and forgot that after I uploaded them I deleted the originals off the camera...

Shit.... Memories erased :\ ill try to upload some later...
Peace


::sidenote:: I despise Teyana Taylor!
BUT thats for another day! :)