2008 was definetly not a year of happy for aquarius It was a year of reflection, mourning, and figuering out what is real and what is a false pretender.
Alot of shit happened this year that realy made me have to grow up mentally. Emotionally i was a total wreck.
I mean so many things happened that I had to face maturity.
1) i spent my birthday alone at home
2) i lost someone speacial to me, to someone else
3) all my friends evaporated before the graduation day actually ended
4) im not in college.
5) i still havent had a real boyfriend
Like the list goes on. Yesterday i was feeling like shit because I couldnt understand why i was feeling the way i was feeling. Im as open as i can be but i cant let anyone in. Ive seen too many heartbreals by my peers so seeing that i try to avoid it by not doing what the others do.
But it seems as if that is the only way i should be for me to see any results.
Im stuck in a rut that i dug n its difficult climbing out with out any nails.... :|
Remeber.. how back when I first started this blog..
i just used to talk about McDonalds.. well heres a blast from the past.
ADVENTURES IN MICKEY DEEZZZZ..[nuts]
Now maybe its me.
But honestly I think people become stupider when they are put in front of customer service.
Like they feel as if they are smarter than you because your job is to serve, but in turn because of thier arrogance, they become dumb.
Anyway back to the story.
So im in Front D/T right and it was last week friday this happened.
The weather man said it was going to be a snow storm at 9 right.
9 came and passed and it was not any snow at all.
so im like.. [u dumb shit]
then it was od snow out of nowhere.
but b4 all that bullshit.
it was raining I believe.
This elderly couple drives thru orders 2 decaf coffees and pays their money.
Now I go to make thier coffees and have it sitting on the inside of the drive thru waiting for their elderly ass to hurry the hell up and get em.
as soon as I see them pull up I open up the window with the quickness and hand them the coffees.
Mind you it is already raining and mad cold liquids are sprinklings on me and it feels like ice picks.
The old dude rolls down the window. and I swear before the window is visible enough to pass his nose he barks out
[for those of you who are virgins to the ways of mcdonalds.. we have drink bags that we hand out to customers who have two drinks or more, usually we don't do this in drive thru because. you have a fucking car with cup holders.]
So I'm looking at him like "you old crusty fart."
now at first I was going to put the coffees in the bag and hand it to them but I was like
"these bum-ass custy's think they can get away with anything they like. Think they can just demand things rudely as if im not human. as if its not below fucking zero in sum freezin ass weather, while they got on coats and car heaters.!"
So I turn around and Hand them the plastic bag "here"
He looks me as if I committed the ultimate sin.
"what?!" he replied.
"Here..." I said handing him the plastic bag looking directly into his eyes..
"Uhm your supposed to put it in".. the old lady bag next to him says.
"No, Im not, its a courtesy. You have hands right?"
"The manger always puts it in, when I ask" The old man replies with a snort.
a scowl was growing on the face of the woman next to him.
probably growing impatient at the girl in the black mcdonalds hat and the breezy rain through her window.
So we go back and forth and in the end I jus say ..."man fuck it" I put the coffees in the bag and continue to smile.. hand them the bag and smile with a "Have A Nice Day"
The man takes his coffees, gives me one last look before the window actually closes and shouts out.
"You fucking dumbass!"
I push the window back open and shout to the man and his wife
"FUCK YOU TOO, I HOPE U CHOKE U OLD BASTARD!!"
and close the window.
He continued to curse, but I was satisfied with my comeback.
The moral of the story is children,
when people are assholes for no damn reason,
and you think maybe its because of the seasons,
and you try your best to put on a smile,
but they just irk u no matter what all the while.
just take my advice when they wanna get smart,
"listent o me mother fucker I'm just playing a part,
It turns out I can't get the Blackberry Storm...ever.
Well not ever just until my contract becomes eligible for an upgrade, which should take another 6 months. By that time the Blackberry will be trash and I won't want it anymore. because yes. I am materialistic and yes... I do want it before everyone has it. Or at least everyone I know.
My sis I give big props too though **hands props to sis**
She was on a missionto find that damn phone!! find a way.
Capricorns... determind. **cough Stubborn cough**
So being already vexed I went on a shopping spree.
Spree I tell you.. SPREEEEE!!!!!!!
Its too cold to be walking around.
well it was actually very nice yesterday sunny and shit.
of course when you shop online theres only one place to shop!
I Just came back from Casper's house. Hopefully my new producer....[if he happens to want to move to fordham so I don't have to freeze my titties off in this weather]
For real I didn't think I was going to make it. I froze literally waiting for bullshit public transportation.
But without a little pain you can't progress right?
So I came in there extra scared. For some reason I though I was heading to a "Professional Studio" like the ones you see in the music video and Hova tryna spit a verse that he can't spit because he got to old. [J-Z L-P] haha
No it was way more comfortable. Casper's room a mic a mic stand. His computer system with all the hookups. It was really exciting. I was a little nervous but noenough to make me choke in front of all my peers during my final exam where in I had to just play one stupid song on a keyboard. no. much more relaxed.
So first David did his verse. He looked so professional! I was a lil taken aback by his forthwright. [If that at all goes with what I'm trying to recapture through text]
So then it came down to my turn.
IDK I was expecting Casper to be one of those snooty ass... "are you sure you know what your doing?" type guy.. but he was alright Very nice, very relaxed. [and he smelt so good. OMG.. i think it was Curve] So anyway i did my verse then sang the hook. shit was tough.
They were giving me mad props. My cheecks still hurt. haha!! [from smiling.....nasty]
anywho. In the back of my mind my pride and all that went up like 100% I got it first try doubling.. and flowing.
I think that I can become really good once I find my voice and shit like that. I mean I like the track and all but I would like to sound more animated when I do my thang a huh huh huh huh [grandmaster flash voice]