Ok... So I'm thinking I might be a lil depressed.
2008 was definetly not a year of happy for aquarius
It was a year of reflection, mourning, and figuering out what is real
and what is a false pretender.
Alot of shit happened this year that realy made me have to grow up mentally.
Emotionally i was a total wreck.
I mean so many things happened that I had to face maturity.
1) i spent my birthday alone at home
2) i lost someone speacial to me, to someone else
3) all my friends evaporated before the graduation day actually ended
4) im not in college.
5) i still havent had a real boyfriend
Like the list goes on.
Yesterday i was feeling like shit because I couldnt understand why i was feeling the way i was feeling. Im as open as i can be but i cant let anyone in. Ive seen too many heartbreals by my peers so seeing that i try to avoid it by not doing what the others do.
But it seems as if that is the only way i should be for me to see any results.
Im stuck in a rut that i dug n its difficult climbing out with out any nails.... :|