OMGGGG

WATCH IT WHILE U CAN..... MY DUDE IS SUPAH DUPAH !!
LMMFAOO

VIA..THEYBF

UGHH SASHA...UR LAME!!!!!

SO I OFFICIAL CONSENT TO BEING THE ULTIMATE LAME!.

IN THE SENSE THAT I PREACH ALL THIS GOOD SHIT ABOUT .

."YEA DONT BEG FOR A NIGGA!"
AND
"IF HE DONT CALL U FUCK THAT DUCHE BAG"
AND
"OOO I GOT FLOWS TOO... U JUST ONE OF MANY!!"

...I AM ASHAMED TO SAY ALL THAT LOGIC WAS KNOCKED DOWN. JUST LIKE KERI HILSON... I WAS KANYE SMASHED TO PIECES.! >:[

OKAY SO ITS LIKE THIS..REMEMBER WHEN I GAVE YALL A LIL EXCERPT OF ME AND A BOY FROM HIGH SCHOOL HOOKING UP AND KICKING IT??

WELL SATURDAY I WENT OUT WITH MY GUY D. AND FOR SOME REASON THE WOMAN IN ME DECIDED IT WAS TIME TO UNLEASH WOMANLY FURRY UPON THIS NIGGA.

FOR THE TIME BEING WE CAN CALL HIM MUPPET.

HERE'S THE CONVO. VIA TEXT MESSAGE!

ME: U KNOW U A CLOWN FOR REAL RIGHT?

MUPPET: YEA [BLAH BLAH SOME SMART COMMENT...FORGOT B/C ME IN A RAGE DELETED ALL HIS MESSAGES TODAY!!!!]

ME: WHY YOU HAVEN'T HIT ME UP??

MUPPET: I WAS GOING TO BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY..

*ROLLS EYES*

ME: U NEED A TOPIC TO TALK TO ME?

.....5 MINUTES OF NO REPLY.. [IN THE TEXTING WORLD THAT'S FOREVERMORE]

ME: DON'T TREAT ME LIKE A F**KING FLOW A**HOLE...
[A LITTLE BRASH?]

MUPPET: DON'T TALK TO ME LIKE THAT PLEASE.

ME: DON'T TALK TO ME AT ALL.

AND THE ACADEMY AWARD FOR OVERLY DRAMATIC GOES TO!!

BUT I HAD GOOD CAUSE MAN!

LAST TIME I SAW MUPPET WAS THURSDAY RIGHT?

HE HASN'T SPOKEN TO ME, HIT ME UP, OR ANYTHING UNTIL SATURDAY WEN I INITIATED IT.

TOADY'S TUESDAY AND HE STILL DIDN'T HIT ME UP OR ANYTHING... SMH

SOOOO

LIKE THE LAME P**SY I AM... I HIT HIM WITH A TEXT.
UGHHH I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE.
LIKE THERE WERE SO MANY SIGNS.
IT WOULDN'T SEND FOR MAD LONG... AND I KEPT TYPING IT WRONG.
THE GODS WERE TRYING TO SAVE ME THE EMBARRASSMENT BUT NOOOO
I JUST HAD TO DO IT.
AND WHAT MAKES IT WORSE. 10 MINUTES LATER NO REPLY.. THEN I SENT ANOTHER TEXT.

"WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS BITCH?" *SIDE EYE*..

I KNOW I FEEL LIKE THE ONLY DICK FACE BUT URGGHKLE.. I CAN'T HELP IT :[

HONEST TO GOD THAT WAS THE ONLY SEMI-....RELATIONSHIP??? I HAD EVER.
EVER!!! AND IT LASTED A GOOD WEEK.

OMG.

I AM A TOTAL AND COMPLETE LAME ASS BIT*H.
SMH I TOLD MY SIS AND SHE AGREES.

*POUTS*

AND THE WORST PART IS.
HE NOT EVEN THAT SERIOUS!!!
I COULD UNDERSTAND IF HE LOOKED LIKE...CHRIS PINE >:]

LIKE FOR ME TO EVEN BE FEIGNING OR REALLY SWEATING OVER
HE SOME REGULAR NIGGA..
IF NOT KIND WEIRD LOOKING.

BUT HE GOT GAME..AND APPARENTLY MUCH FLOW.
[HE MADE THAT APPARENT WHEN HE WAS TALKING
ON THE PHONE TO THEM WHILE I WAS DEPARTING.]

...ITS TOMORROW.. AND HE STILL DIDNT HIT ME BACK. I HAVE A FEELING IM GOING TO SEE HIM TOMORROW... AND IMMA BE A REAL SNOOTY BISH ABOUT IT.

...IF I DONT BREAK DOWN RIGTH THERE ON THE MCDONALDS FLOOR.. :[


OUTT.....LAME BISH..

WALKING VERSUS DOIING STUFF MANG..

I HAD MEANT TO POST THIS AWHILE BACK BUT, ONE THING LED TO ANOTHER AND I FORGOT.

IT WAS A SUBJECT THAT IS TOUCHY AND WHEN PEOPLES REAL FEELINGS AND PERSPECTIVES ARE LET OUT. ITS ALMOST TABOO TO EVEN THINK ABOUT THINKING THAT WAY.

ANYWAY TO THE POINT!.

I'M NOT SURE BUT LETS SAY A WEEK BACK A FELLOW BLOGGER HAD HIT ME UP ON MYSPACE USING THAT I.M. THING.

ANYWAY I WAS ASKED IF I HAD GONE TO THE AIDS WALK?

I REPLIED.

ME: NO...FOR WHAT?

THEY WERE LIKE WHAT?? TO BENEFIT PEOPLE WITH AIDS AND HELP FIND A CURE.!

ME: ....AND?

BASICALLY LEMME BREAK THIS DOWN.

I HOLD CERTAIN THINGS TRUE TO ME AND I WILL STAND FOR A CAUSE I BELIEVE IN.

I WILL ALSO PARTICIPATE IN SOMETHING I BELIEVE WILL BENEFIT THOSE WHO NEED IT.

AS FOR THAT AIDS WALK... I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO PAERICIPATE.

DONT THINK IM CRUEL BUT I JUST BELIEVE THAT IF WE CAN SPEND THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS ORGANIZING IT AND ADVERTISING IT, MERCHANDISE AND ALL THESE OTHER MIDDLEMEN THAN WHY CAN'T WE JUST USE ALL THE MONEY WE JUST BLEW FOR ALL OF THAT.

AND SEND IT INTO THESE LABS SO THEY CAN FIND A CURE?

PUT IT LIKE THIS.

PEOPLE HAVE BEEN WALKING FOR AIDS FOR MANY YEARS.

AND EVEN AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS, AFTER ALL THOSE BILLIONS OF DOLLARS.

WE STILL DON'T HAVE A CURE???

OR AT LEAST A SUBSTITUTE NOTHING AT ALL? NO KIND OF PROGRESS ??

I FEEL LIKE ITS NONSENSE THEN.

MAYBE IF IT WAS MORE OF A HANDS ON WAY OF HELPING WHERE IM ACTUALLY SEEING AND DOING THINGS THAT I CAN SEE FOR MYSELF IS HELPING.

LIKE FEEDING THE HUNGRY AND HOMELESS OR GIVING AWAY CLOTHING TO FAMILIES IN NEED, OR SENDING MONEY GRAMS TO THOSE WHO NEED IT SO WHEN THEY OPEN THEIR MAIL THEY HAVE A CHECK FOR WHATEVER SUM OF MONEY. SO THEY CAN CASH IT!!

LIKE I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WHERE I CAN SEE THE PROGRESS OF MY HELP.

BUT IF YOU GONNA HAVE ME WALKING UP AND DOWN MANHATTAN FOR HOWEVER LONG AND ALL I GET TO SEE IS SWEATY STINK PEOPLE, AND CRUSHED UP DIXIE CUPS, THEN NO!

IF ALL I GET TO SEE IS THE 11'0CLOCK NEWS DOCUMENTING ...PEOPLE WALKING!! THEN NO

I'M NOT WALKING FOR SHIT!

FUCK THAT.

TO ME IT SEEMS LIKE A DAMN GIMMICK...

LIKE SOME TOM FOOLERY .

IM NOT KNOCKING THOSE WHO DO DO THESE EVENTS, FOR THEM I AM HAPPY IF IT MAKES THEM HAPPY.

JUST DONT COME AT ME LIKE IM WIERD.. BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO NOT WALK. AND YOU DONT LIKE MY BELIEFS

THATS HOW I AM.

I DONT KNOW HOW SASHA FIERCE WOULD REACT BUT... THIS IS HOW SASHA DOES IT.

I'D RATHER BE ON THE COMITTEE WHO HELPS FIND THE CURE, OR BE THE NURSE IN THE HOSPITAL THAT TENDS TO THE SICKLY.

THAN WALK A BLOCK AND GO HOME.

...I THINK IM JUST MORE OF A HANDS ON TYPE OF GIRL...

ME SIGNING OUT...

STAR TREK [REVIEW]

...IN A SHOPPING MOOD, BUT I'M TRYING TO CURB MY HABIT.

YESTERDAY I WENT TO SEE STAR TREK.

NOW I DON'T REMEMBER EXACTLY THE SHOW.
BUT I BELIEVE THIS MOVIE DID IT JUSTICE 10X OVER.
THIS IS THE MOST INSPIRATIONAL FLICK I HAVE SEEN IN A WHILE.
THERE ARE MANY DOUBLE MEANINGS IN THIS FLICK AND A LOT OF BIAS' AND STEREOTYPES BUT BESIDES THE POINT.
THE MOVIE WAS SO GREAT.

IT LEFT ME WANTING TO GO AND WATCH THE ORIGINAL STAR TREK.

IT WAS GREAT HOW CHRIS PINE PORTRAYED CAPTAIN KIRK AS A SMART ASS WHO COULD BACK HIS SHIT UP!.
LIKE HE WASN'T ALL TALK THE KID HAD A BRAIN AND WAS SO TALENTED.
I KNOW I SOUND LIKE THE ONLY GEEK, AND FUK IF I AM ONE.
AND MAYBE I'M GETTING A LITTLE TOO INTO IT BECAUSE I WAS BLUNTED WHEN I WATCHED IT.
SO OF COURSE NOW I'M SEEING IT...like.. seeing it.

BUT YEAH I DEFINITELY DO RECOMMEND THIS MOVIE. EVEN IF YOUR NOT A FAN.
ITS GOOD STUFFING.

IITE

OOOO SEXY

OOO and another thing...

WHY WAS ZOE SALDANA EXTRA PIGEON IN THIS MOVIE. LIKE SHE WAS JUST ALL UP AND UNDER SPOCK. FOR NO REASON!! NOT EVEN LIKE HE WAS ASKING OR SOMETHING.

I DONT WANNA SPOIL IT FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVEN'T SEEN IT, BUT REALLY I WAS WATCHING IT LIKE.. REALLY BITCH??
IDK MAYBE ITS JUST ME.
...this was the only one i could find :]

"...Problem with these other niggas they aint never real."

....
mood: PISSED!!!

location: BEDROOM

music on: Drake - So Far Gone


WTFFFFFF Man
I swear to God why are you so damn dense?????

We've been friends since what? I was a Sophomore and you a Senior
and you still don't fucking get it.


Yes that is what I was thinking after having an hour long argument with a long time friend.
At first it started out with a back and forth disagreement with Eminem's new album Relapse.

My view: The Album is Trashtastic.. it has no emotional content and it doesn't do a thing for its fans other than "smoove lyrical content"

His view: Its "Slim Shady...Eminems relapse back into his Slim Shady Days."

We were literally going back and forth about the topic for a good hour and change.

AS you know if you are arguing and you are really passionate it stems from deeper feelings.

I'm trying to explain that its not good because he's been gone for like 5 years and he comes back with this nonsense. He doens't give any kind of outlet or window for us the fans to see what has been up.
Just some bullshit bout 3am SMH


He's cold and no emotion. and Thats how I've been feeling about one of my closets friends.

He is supposed to be a good friend of mine but I can't help feeling as if the boy is afraid to push boundaries. Come out of his safe zone and try something new.

I didn't think I could become this pissed off at a person for being so damn timid.

It boils me , gets under my skin, annoys me.
If you can't get angry or tell me how your feeling, or let me know "Hey..that was a real fucked up thing you did"... Then

I really see no point in a friendship that only I am working towards.

Im trying to explain the point of him exploring his feelings.
His excuse is..

Thats how I am..

Thats how u are?

Thats whats gonna end up having you alone and lonely.
smh

Its sad to think that I seemed to be the crazy one while we were talking.
Like he really didnt see where I was coming from.
and it pissed me off

TA RAHTED!!!!
ugh. I was about to toss the damn macbook through the window.

{gladly I do have a brain.}

But when the conversation ended I had time to reflect.

I KNOW I KNOW
its a long ass post. But I'd appreciate it you would at least skim it. LOL

I just needed to vent it. ...ugh

I feel better.

Time for cake. and an episode of
DollHouse.

peaces...!!!!!

Air Yeezy's = Dirty homosaipiens.

Ya'll dirty...

Waiting for Yeezys from kwest on Vimeo.

...these dickheads missed school and have been camping outside across the street since tuesday or maybe even earlier.

There is no bathroom or a gas station nearby to wash up the goodies...
and they're doing this for a pair of sneakers, that they are gonna rock all ugly.
and then fuck em up because they actually "wore" them.
and I bet you any amount that there is gonna be that one pum pum face that chooses to buy two.
One for display and one for wearing.

....i can't stand these niggas.

Eh, Eh

I was here for a good minute trying to figure out why the fuck my mac web browser was showing websites as if it were an IBM computer or some shit.
went to yahoo answers.. and

Ta-Da! found an answer...
beacause Safari is cold poop
and Firefox is the whip cream to my chocolate ice cream =D

Now I actually want to blog .

On to more important news.

So I had gone to see a "friend" I haven't seen since I was like 17 18 right.
N it was good to see this "friend" I was happy..
He ended up telling me he had needed some cash, just so he could get back on his feet.
Hes starting a new job and he didnt have any cash flow.. w.e.

So I lend him the odd amount and told him we could kick it that saturday.


Saturday came, he hit me up like
"oh Hey... babe when are we going to chill?"

I'm like Im taking a nap Ill hit you up at 5.
I wake up 6:27 and he sent me like a ka-jillion messages on aim.

Hes like ooo lets chill.. ets go to JC Penny and cop some cargos.
Mind you .. I just lent the nigga some 40 odd cash so..
WTF right?

I told him I'm not buying him shit, I just wantedd to chill.

"ahaha you funny nah for real tho copp me some cargos"

.... are you deaf?
No.
I have no cash for you, on top of that you owe me money so what do I look like>>? a fool?

The conversation gets deeper and I become agitated by how the nigga acting like a straight up jerk off.. so I say nite and stop talking to him!

Now he goes and says something I never heard.
"Ight then lata"


_____________________

um excuse me??
Its not like it hasn't happened before, but t6he crazy part is..
He hasn't hit me up since

Now are you telling me..my ass got douped?
bamboozled...
Conned???

TUH!

Let the rest of the week past and I don't get a hello.
let the rest of this month pass and I don't see my 40 odd cash flow.
Let this nigga even try n work me for my cash.


It'd be a sad day in the Bronx for a tall black Jamaican motherfucker I'll tell you that much.

.......

I swear people think just because I'm kind and I do things for other, a sweet person and don't like drama

that I am "pussy"

Fuck

Outta

Here.

If shit is going to go down and the main reason is me. Best believe I will be all up in that ass if it concerns me or people I hold close.

Stop the bullshit mane. Keep it to yourself and move it along.

Ugghhh>>> >.<

Kindness for Cowardace

"With Great Power Comes Great Responsibilities"

...Uncle Ben

If that isn't the truth I don't know what is.

I swear this promotion has sparked so much damn drama in McDonalds you would think Ronald bitch-slapped Hamburgerler.

Let me say this now.

People will hate on you because of three factors.

1. insecurities
2. jealousy
3. envy

If you have someone who suffers from one or more of these symptoms. Tell them to shove it where it don't shine.

The first day I got my shirt I got "oh congratulations" and "great jobs" from almost everyone in the store.

Everyone else either didn't say a thing or just looked at me and cut thier eyes.

For the people who did give me thanks you and stuff I greeted them back just as happy.

OMG.

If you know damn well you weren't happy for me to get my shirt then PLEASE do not put on a front as if you gave a shit.

Just keep it to yourself.

Don't give me fake ass compliments to make yourself feel better, because honestly you just end up looking phony as ever.

There's this girl at my job, now this bitch is like 23 and for some reason wants to jock strap me now that I've gotten my shirt.

The first day I got it she was one of the ones to give me congrats.

(phony muthafucker)

I said something to her about making sure she gets her food for drive-thru and now she wants to say..

"oh now she got her shirt she think she got some authority"

......pause.

first of all.. I would've, and HAVE told you this before I got this godforsaken shirt.

So now that I have the shirt you think I'm abusing the shirt.

No, your just going to use my shirt as an excuse of abuse of power because you don't want to listen to a 19 year old crew manager. Yet and still "congrats on your shirt.

Fuck the bullshit.

On top of that!

The last week before I had given her 3 dollars for lunch.

Mind you it don't really matter to me because money is money and if you need I'd lend it to you.

So Last Friday we had a disgusting rush.

Like from 12 straight through till when I left.

I mean nonstop

Not even enough time for me to have bathroom break and not come back and see my screen filled with orders.

OOOOOOOHHHH

ANOTHER THING!!

quickly lemme say this. Theres this old ass BGW bitch {BGW stands for Big Gay n in the Way}

Her name is Anette and I swear to GOD she acts like a goddamn child.

She has been complaining about me since the beginning because I was on my way to crew trainer and I had more privileges and still in my regular shirt.

SO anything I do she's going to have a problem with it.

We had like 3 meetings already.

The last meeting I bust her ass with my keen listening skills and bad ass verbal actions lol.

Okay back to the story

the most disgusting rush ever.

My manager Meme transfer me from the kitchen to the front counter. In my opinion I think she just got tired of being up front and nothing changing.

so Im in the front and its fustrating because its literally the never ending rush. and its hot as fuck.

I tell this dumby in drive-thru get her orders.

she say

"how I'm suppose to get it if your dumbass keep taking the fries" or some shit like that.

I'm like.. Bitch just be quicker.

Your slow.

so we go back and forth and I end it by saying. If you want to continue this argument by yourself go ahead because I'm done.

Finally the demon rush is over and I can continue with my life.

There is this big group of ghettos outside of the McDonalds and I'm just like.. man I can't do this shit for long.

I see the dumby from drive-thru and she's there with these two other girls I know.

Later on I come to find out. The Bish was straight up Plotting on my demise.

Like she brought the girls to come "work it out"

But I knew both of the girls she was with and whatever she had planned for ME.

they weren't with it because I'm cool peoples.

Im sorry if I'm really getting into this McDonalds bullshit.

But For heaven sakes. ITS ONLY McDONALDS!!!

Like people definitely take it to the butt.

N must think I do also.

NOOOOO I take my role how I'm suppose to professionally.

If you don't like it. Kick Rocks and quit.

Ughhh.. I go back to work tomorrow and I dare a hoe to say some really slick shit out there mouth.

I have no time for nonsense and I can't be around dumb niggas to long.

I think I'd catch an aneurism.

Fuckkkkkkxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

oo btw.. I feel like drama will ensue in due time. smh for that one.

I AM VEXXXED!!!!

.............

let me say this.. alotta things piss me off. BUT when I say this really GRINDS MY GEARS..

it really truly and honestly does.

Soooo Im on Sesilee Lopez page right..

and I'm looking at her followers.

I see this girls page, now I'm not going to put her on blast but, I will say she's very into her African power and embracing things that are natural.

...From the jump I knew I was in for some ol' bulllshit.

I'm looking through her page and she has these videos of Black women.

and Videos on different ways to style your hair if its natural which is all fine. I mean whatever. Kudos to you and yours. Help a sister or brother out whatever the case may be.

So I continue to scroll and I see a pictures of the Relaxer Dark & Lovely.

[I had used that relaxer... really not my cup of tea but w.e.]

Then I see she posted pictures of Black women with what seems to be relaxed hair.

As I scroll futher down I see a picture of a woman with her scalp missing som

e hair.. then I sctoll down and find a picture of a lady blad as ever with mad scabs and shit all over her head.

Then she goes on to caption:..

Stop the hair!! For those who dare not take the plunge ..(the hair requires more care than the maintenance of natural hair! because the hair is in a chemical attack)

_______________*ahem* FLATLINE___________________

Really Bitch?? How did I knowwww you were going to be the one.

how did I know??

I swear its like people who claim they embrace their origin and are fine with who they are SURE DO SEEEM

to have a huge problem with everyone else.

smgdh.

I wrote her a comment that was extra long.. I had to vent on that chicka when I saw her post.

Honestly just because you have natural doesn't mean your any better than any other black person. it just means you have natural hair..

It takes the same amount of care and maintanance as hair that is "chemically attacked"

It's not like you can just wake up with natural hair and be on

your way.. NOOO m

a'am

It will take some staying up lateon a sunday night arms aching trying to get them little guys twisted up right for School/ Work or wherever your ass was going.

PLEASE...

cut the bullshit mane smh.

and stop saying "That's why black people like that now..!"

No thats why your like that now..

stop worrying about the race cause no one id putting the weight on your shoulders, You wanna be a Hero start with yourself.

GIRL BYE.

When My hair was natural. Threw some color in there to make it come alive

I threw the extensions in so the color could grow out.

Right after I relaxed my hair after being natural.

The edges need a touch up.. BUT my hair is healthy.

xxxxx FUCOUTTAHERE xxxxx