WALKING VERSUS DOIING STUFF MANG..

I HAD MEANT TO POST THIS AWHILE BACK BUT, ONE THING LED TO ANOTHER AND I FORGOT.

IT WAS A SUBJECT THAT IS TOUCHY AND WHEN PEOPLES REAL FEELINGS AND PERSPECTIVES ARE LET OUT. ITS ALMOST TABOO TO EVEN THINK ABOUT THINKING THAT WAY.

ANYWAY TO THE POINT!.

I'M NOT SURE BUT LETS SAY A WEEK BACK A FELLOW BLOGGER HAD HIT ME UP ON MYSPACE USING THAT I.M. THING.

ANYWAY I WAS ASKED IF I HAD GONE TO THE AIDS WALK?

I REPLIED.

ME: NO...FOR WHAT?

THEY WERE LIKE WHAT?? TO BENEFIT PEOPLE WITH AIDS AND HELP FIND A CURE.!

ME: ....AND?

BASICALLY LEMME BREAK THIS DOWN.

I HOLD CERTAIN THINGS TRUE TO ME AND I WILL STAND FOR A CAUSE I BELIEVE IN.

I WILL ALSO PARTICIPATE IN SOMETHING I BELIEVE WILL BENEFIT THOSE WHO NEED IT.

AS FOR THAT AIDS WALK... I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO PAERICIPATE.

DONT THINK IM CRUEL BUT I JUST BELIEVE THAT IF WE CAN SPEND THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS ORGANIZING IT AND ADVERTISING IT, MERCHANDISE AND ALL THESE OTHER MIDDLEMEN THAN WHY CAN'T WE JUST USE ALL THE MONEY WE JUST BLEW FOR ALL OF THAT.

AND SEND IT INTO THESE LABS SO THEY CAN FIND A CURE?

PUT IT LIKE THIS.

PEOPLE HAVE BEEN WALKING FOR AIDS FOR MANY YEARS.

AND EVEN AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS, AFTER ALL THOSE BILLIONS OF DOLLARS.

WE STILL DON'T HAVE A CURE???

OR AT LEAST A SUBSTITUTE NOTHING AT ALL? NO KIND OF PROGRESS ??

I FEEL LIKE ITS NONSENSE THEN.

MAYBE IF IT WAS MORE OF A HANDS ON WAY OF HELPING WHERE IM ACTUALLY SEEING AND DOING THINGS THAT I CAN SEE FOR MYSELF IS HELPING.

LIKE FEEDING THE HUNGRY AND HOMELESS OR GIVING AWAY CLOTHING TO FAMILIES IN NEED, OR SENDING MONEY GRAMS TO THOSE WHO NEED IT SO WHEN THEY OPEN THEIR MAIL THEY HAVE A CHECK FOR WHATEVER SUM OF MONEY. SO THEY CAN CASH IT!!

LIKE I WANT TO DO SOMETHING WHERE I CAN SEE THE PROGRESS OF MY HELP.

BUT IF YOU GONNA HAVE ME WALKING UP AND DOWN MANHATTAN FOR HOWEVER LONG AND ALL I GET TO SEE IS SWEATY STINK PEOPLE, AND CRUSHED UP DIXIE CUPS, THEN NO!

IF ALL I GET TO SEE IS THE 11'0CLOCK NEWS DOCUMENTING ...PEOPLE WALKING!! THEN NO

I'M NOT WALKING FOR SHIT!

FUCK THAT.

TO ME IT SEEMS LIKE A DAMN GIMMICK...

LIKE SOME TOM FOOLERY .

IM NOT KNOCKING THOSE WHO DO DO THESE EVENTS, FOR THEM I AM HAPPY IF IT MAKES THEM HAPPY.

JUST DONT COME AT ME LIKE IM WIERD.. BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO NOT WALK. AND YOU DONT LIKE MY BELIEFS

THATS HOW I AM.

I DONT KNOW HOW SASHA FIERCE WOULD REACT BUT... THIS IS HOW SASHA DOES IT.

I'D RATHER BE ON THE COMITTEE WHO HELPS FIND THE CURE, OR BE THE NURSE IN THE HOSPITAL THAT TENDS TO THE SICKLY.

THAN WALK A BLOCK AND GO HOME.

...I THINK IM JUST MORE OF A HANDS ON TYPE OF GIRL...

ME SIGNING OUT...

Healing Quite Nicely

Okay the the gash in my forehead is healing nicely thanks to moms quick think and frozen peas..

it looks like a battle wound you know...

THUG LIFE!!!

and i just figured out how to make a movie...i will post soon son

im out like a sperm..

...eww thats disgusting

..oh yeah swallow my words and head my saying if you odn't know by now

im the fuckin shit... sorry

just thought i should mention for those who forgotten :]

fuk my bluetooth isnt working...

Ohh yeah My Shit i keep it on repeat :]

Little Jackie - Black Barbie =D

this song is the shizzle.. the lyrics are funny

sorry for this monster of a playlist but idk how to get the cute little auid ones :[

So I have been really busy this past week and kind of dissapointed that i didnt get to go to that concert. :,[ if you didnt notice already.

so anywho that one event made me think seriously about where i want to go in the future.

before when people would tell me oo the way you are in highschool is how you are for the rest of your life.

i used to just look at them like "no not really"

i still think that but to a certain point. i believe if you have enough determination to change you shall. i mean you control you and whatever life brings is due in part to choices you make. if you make the choice to be a lazy bum do you really think your going to be balling by the time your 30? nah

that's why im uneasy about my future. it's like i have alot of ability and too much talent to contain. if i try something new im able to have it downpack by like a week. i can draw i can write i can do anything but it doesn't mean shit if you let it go to waste. and throughout my end of sophmore year to senior year that's what i did. i had the mean drawers block [<---is that a word?] and i think it was because i was too busy worrying about what my friends were into rather than what i was into.

but enough of that. Im sure im meant for something more. i mean when i was just a little child i could've died due a disease i had where i couldn't hold down any food at all.. like i was 8 months and i couldnt eat anything i lost alot of weight and when my mother brought me to the doctors they told her it was nothing serious. I reiterate... i could've died as a child but my mothers determination and intuition got me to where i am today. alive.

shit i know i must be meant for something great if i could survive something like that .. and i was less than a year old.. god must have a plan in store for me and i intend to take the blueprints and make it happen.

Okay Im Gone.. Z_z

going to bed...

rock the bells tomorrow...gotta wake up early

night night sweet things
...hopefully pics will be posted
=]
meh sheckzy self as usual

lol
im out peace!!
Zz..Z..Zz.zz...ZzzZz....[Z_z]

SHIT

I worte a really cute blog \ rant about Disney's " The Princess and the Frog"
but this bitch ass internet browser did some voodoo shit and deleted it, and I don't feel like rewriting it so here.

A teaser from Disney's first black princess



YAY black people in a film...and this time were not animals
hehehe

it comes out Christmas 2009

Bleecker Street and Beyond

Out and About with D.
bored at home so we decided to Oogle kicks and have Wendy's

I wanted him so bad >:[...a cute lil store on the corner of Bleecker.



42nd Phone Graffiti...smells like home



Thats D.'s happy face when he see's what he likes :p
Imagine Prom Night [xD...jokin]

I never saw the movie Iron Man...but I heard Hulk and him are supposed to collaborate in a film soon....

Transit!! looks like a subway..only you have to pay for what you find..::sigh::

Shrunken Santa Doll

Thats when we were in Ricky's... I wanted a shirt that said
Mr.Masturbate lmaoo

Thats when we were in Blades...[their decks are so sleek and shiny =]
getting one soon hopefully right D :]

Transit has a sneaker bin ..thats what i used to do to everything in my room
sneaker bin, clothes bin, food bin...etc

After that we chilled in my crib with the rest of the beef patties and watched Avatar and listened to Paul Mooney.

Fun Times Indeed

Much Love [*-*]

AVATAR FINALE :p

It was very very goooood.

OOo Aang...your pre-pubescent abs turn me on lol ::dies::


i hope M.Night Shama...[sumfin another ]
doesn't suck the movie for all its worth n make it like Harry Potter... =.=

...they say he [Jonathan Nguyen ] will play Aang in the live action movie
...hmmm...

Congrats to Woo...lets party

YAY!!! =]]]

I'm really excited about my budderz, Woo! He doing big things and its only common sense for me to bring attention and support the kid.












Definetly for all the readers who read this you should check out the track Robbin Season

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=87464674

it reminds me of young 50 Rob and Steal I'm really proud of him. I remeber back in the day MMCC goodtimes of course.

[*-*]

OMG... I have to hit up this party...
hosted by Wreckhouse ENT. 3 in 1 party.

•March of dimes [ten cents for us ladies...i know i thought it was a joke the first time too]
•Bare as you Dare [i'm not to sure what this actually means, but im with it =]
•Glow in the Dark [make sure to bring your strobe lights guys and gals]
and then theres, "Who Runs The City 2008" [the biggest competition of the city]

WreckHouse n Crunch Time friendly [hopefully] competion Summer going to be very fun =]

fun times indeed.

CHinKii™ couldn't make it =[

Fools Golds...

Sunday July 20th
Central Park's Summer Stage hosted The Mad Fool's Concert..
Santogold
A-Trak
Kid Cudi
and Kesh was there too :[
and guess what..
I MISSED IT >:[
FUKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

::sad face::

....I was babysitting. and didn't even find out about it until the day of...after 3:oopm

Batman Pics =]

Movie Night 42nd...all hell broke loose >:o

Thanks to the lady who took this pic..kudos :)

I dont know who he is but he was funny :}

::lmao:::

Oooo Verizon enV [they dont even make it anymore :]

He looks like the dude in the other picture with the fitted on lol

McDonalds.. *represents*

I would've recorded the movie and bootlegged it to you folks buhh.....the cam :::cries::: broke

n I have only so much memorie on this lil phone of mine...:]

Much Love

MEE!! [*-*]

WIN SOME LOSE SOME

ooo fuk em fuk em fuk em all ahahaha

went to blah blah mcdonalds
to see blah blah people
n talk about blah blah bullshit


the blah blahs weren't there to resolve shit
but to have me say i was wrong and beg for their forgiveness...<---- LMAOO ahahahahaha...no really?? ahahaha oooh lord...that was a good one ahhhh. :] chilled in the chicken spot from the blah blah bullshit unti 7:30 with amanda n nana waited in 42nd for like hours and met up with friends got into a fight with a duchebag ghostover a seat. watched the greatest batman movie ever =] watched end credits like a dumbass n realized what an extraordinary machine i am! [post the pics later :p] [oo yea btw i didnt get to meet my friend for soho..im sure he's fine.] later im tired n the mommy is waking >:•


MUCH LOVEE
[*-*]

July 18th...

..Shit will hit the fan..


Holy Sugar Snaps...what have i gotten myself into?



okay get this..i'm planning a trip to New Roc City to see...

THE DARK KNIGHT!!

but silly me....I didnt take into perspective how many people were losing thier shit for this movie


ooo...me likey ^^^

booking tickets online...



i mean...i invited almost everyone ..
most of them bailed because of work or brokeness..
but what about those who took time out of their day to come with lil ol' me to see the dark knight..opening night??

...ah well

fuk it. =]

I'll improvise =]...we can watch this!























it wont be that bad...right?? •_•

SLEEPY...

...its 4:32 am...


i have to be at York..in Queens, BCC, and Lehman...in a couple of hours



...goodnite z_z























[this pic is extra old...ZzZz]