"...Problem with these other niggas they aint never real."

....
mood: PISSED!!!

location: BEDROOM

music on: Drake - So Far Gone


WTFFFFFF Man
I swear to God why are you so damn dense?????

We've been friends since what? I was a Sophomore and you a Senior
and you still don't fucking get it.


Yes that is what I was thinking after having an hour long argument with a long time friend.
At first it started out with a back and forth disagreement with Eminem's new album Relapse.

My view: The Album is Trashtastic.. it has no emotional content and it doesn't do a thing for its fans other than "smoove lyrical content"

His view: Its "Slim Shady...Eminems relapse back into his Slim Shady Days."

We were literally going back and forth about the topic for a good hour and change.

AS you know if you are arguing and you are really passionate it stems from deeper feelings.

I'm trying to explain that its not good because he's been gone for like 5 years and he comes back with this nonsense. He doens't give any kind of outlet or window for us the fans to see what has been up.
Just some bullshit bout 3am SMH


He's cold and no emotion. and Thats how I've been feeling about one of my closets friends.

He is supposed to be a good friend of mine but I can't help feeling as if the boy is afraid to push boundaries. Come out of his safe zone and try something new.

I didn't think I could become this pissed off at a person for being so damn timid.

It boils me , gets under my skin, annoys me.
If you can't get angry or tell me how your feeling, or let me know "Hey..that was a real fucked up thing you did"... Then

I really see no point in a friendship that only I am working towards.

Im trying to explain the point of him exploring his feelings.
His excuse is..

Thats how I am..

Thats how u are?

Thats whats gonna end up having you alone and lonely.
smh

Its sad to think that I seemed to be the crazy one while we were talking.
Like he really didnt see where I was coming from.
and it pissed me off

TA RAHTED!!!!
ugh. I was about to toss the damn macbook through the window.

{gladly I do have a brain.}

But when the conversation ended I had time to reflect.

I KNOW I KNOW
its a long ass post. But I'd appreciate it you would at least skim it. LOL

I just needed to vent it. ...ugh

I feel better.

Time for cake. and an episode of
DollHouse.

peaces...!!!!!

Very Damn Creepy

Very Recently I have been getting these uber creepy messages on myspace from random men, from random places.

Like... Istanbul, and Germany, and Hackensack.
You know strange places.

and Its always these creepy ass on liners like..

"hey Sexy I like your icon" and shit like that.

I never responded because I don't like to be serial killed. !! >:[

seee.... shit like this.
SMH I really hate myspace for this shit.
Im about to delete it ...

oo yea Happy Mothers Day Man :]

Happy Birthday Chyeaa

It's mii burthday..
Im Older...

Like 19 is better than 18..
last year this time I was sitting in my couch watching t.v. alone,

Now my T.V. is broken.
and I'm on my iMac Blogging...

Ahhh How times have changed.

BUT DON'T FRET

I spent my birthday at work.

and did overtimed ohh what a pleasure .

Im going to celebrate Friday and Saturday.

My new Jam. 

Blame It. - Jamie Foxx..

and this weekend is exactly what I'm going to be doing.

My mother gave me a condom.. she said keep it in your wallet.

Im getting old...

So much nonsense happened this week its unbelievable,

summing it up.

1. on monday a lady in drive-thru tried to fight me.
2. on tuesday my manager was making me feel like extra shit..
3. today both my friends went at each others neck and almost quit.
4. i worked overtime
   

So  yea.. That was MCDonalds drama.

now personal drama omg.

1. Monday. My phone bill is 1500... becaus emy lost phone I "DEACTIVATED" was activated and the bitch ran up my bill...
2. I decided that day I was gonna hunt her down and kill her. she lives in Mt.Vernon and her name is Kassandra.. oh yes. [I don't play]
3. They trying som funny shit with my mom at her job. Framing her for theft. sSMHh
4. My sister went to see her boyfriend on my birthday.. again.

 now the last one isnt so bad. It just showed me how lonely I am.

I in DIRE NEED of a boyfriend. 

I'm desperate, I'm even looking to the ashy handed african cab drivers who alwwwwayyysss seem to wanna talk to me.. smh. 

thats it for now.. and I don't feel like editing shit.. so suck it.