Dear Mom,
How can so many years of motherhood be summed up in a day? It really can’t. The amount of things you have sacrificed to make sure the life we had as children was all it could be with the little we had. That takes selflessness. I don’t know any other title that can even come close to that of a Mother. The way you always know what is wrong, without me even telling you, the way I can come to you for anything and everything because you are for me 100% without any judgement or agenda. I know I can speak to you and still feel the comfort of a kind ear, and the warmth of a loving heart. Maybe more people should be like Mothers. The nurturing nature, the value of your wisdom, and the importance of making sure that person special in your heart knows that everyday of the week, month, and year. This letter is to my mother, and if you are a mother, daughter, son, grandchild, or grandparent reading this, this letter is intended for you as well. Without out mothers, there would be no you or me. Mom I hope you know the true significance of your existence in this world. The Bible says honor thy mother and father, and a day in a year doesn’t make it any more, or less momentous. To not have that loving as child for those who are orphaned, separated from there parents, or are just on bad terms with their mother, I pray that you find the love through another vessel. If its had and taken for granted, I pray that you see the error of your actions, and realize what you have before it is gone.
It can’t be put in words, even though I have attempted.
To Mom, I Love You.
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9.5.10
7.6.09
MAD SHIT UNFOLDS!!!
WHEW! I HATE WHEN I DECIDE TO BLOG ABOUT A LOT OF THINGS THEN JUST...ABRUPTLY STOP.
ITS LIKE A SMACK IN THE FACE.
BUT THAT'S HOW I PIMP THESE HOES >;] *puts the powder on the pimp hand*
DOWN TO BUSINESS.
I WAS GOING TO MAKE A POST ENTITLED "LAME ASS B*SH PART 2 THE SEQUEL" TO MY LAMENESS IN MY PREVIOUS BLOG, BUT I DECIDED NOT TO.
1.. IT IS MY BLOG, BUT DAMN IF I WANT TO GET THAT PERSONAL.
2.. I HAD STUFF TO DO.
SO I'LL GIVE YOU GUYS THE BLURB.
"WHAT HAPPENED AS THE STORY UNFOLDED WITH MUPPET WAS THAT I WASN'T THE ONLY VICTIM. MUPPET HAD HIS EYE OUT FOR ALL OF THE McDONALDS CREW. YUCK!!
WHAT A DICK.
BUT STILL, IT'S NOT LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS GETTING INTO, ITS JUST THAT I THOUGHT I COULD BE SUPERMAN AND SAVE A HOE."
AHA
GUESS NOT.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. I HAVE GOOD NEWS.
AFTER MY NEAR BREAKDOWN AT MY JOB..[thats when they told me the juicy bossip ;)]
I CAME UP WITH A PLAN TO MAKE THAT BOYS' LIFE A LIVING HELL.
..THAT WENT OUT THE WINDOW THOUGH, TOO MUCH TIME AND EFFORT GOES INTO THAT SHIT ...
A FRIEND DID ASK IF I WANTED HIM DEAD THOUGH! BUT I DIGRESS.
I REALIZED THAT THAT BOY.. THAT MUPPET IS JUST A PUPPET AND HIS BOYS AND HIS COMMUNITY ARE PULLING THE STRINGS. ITS NOT EVEN LIKE HE WAS BALLING OUT THE ASS, OR EVEN A HOT COMMODITY. HE'S JUST... ELMO :\
HE IS JUST A SAD PERSON WHO HAS NEVER BEEN LOVED AND USES THAT AS AN EXCUSE TO FUCK AROUND WITH GIRLS FEELINGS. ITS SAD BUT I HAVE NO REMORSE FOR A COWARD. EVEN AFTER IT WAS FOUND OUT HE WAS A JERK HE AVOIDED THE PLACE..
***PUSSY!***
I DIGRESS AGAIN!!
BACK TO GOOD NEWS
I FINALLY GOT MY PHONE!! YESS NIGGA YESSS!!!!!!! *pharrell voice*
THE enV3 ..
BOW IN THE PRESENCE OF GREATNESS.
FUNNY FUNNY.. MY LITTLE SISTER HAS THE enV, THE OLDEST HAS THE enV2, AND I HAVE THE enV3
HAHAHA WHAT A COINCIDENCE..
O_o
ANOTHER LITTLE PIECE OF DINGLE BERRYS FOR YOU GUYS TO ENJOY!
THIS ISN'T CERTAIN BUT I MIGHT ACTUALLY HAVE A LOVE INTEREST.
THAT LIKES ME BACK! *giggles like a little school girl*
tee heeee
I'M SO HYPE IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY!
*my plan to bring down muppet is going accordingly >:}*
...YEAH SO I'M EXTRA HYPE AND HAPPY AND HE'S SEXY AND HE LIVES RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER AND HE'S 6'2 AND OOOO *puts hand over chest and fans herself feverishly*
HUNNY CHILE HUNNY CHILE JUST THINKING ABOUT HIM!
BUT... I DIGRESS..
YET AGAIN!
THATS ENOUGHT OUT OF ME... I'M GOING TO GO PLAY SIMS 3 AND SEE IF I CAN BRING HOME A SUGAR DADDY FOR BIG MAMA
GO BIG GIRL!!!!!!
********toodles*******
ITS LIKE A SMACK IN THE FACE.
BUT THAT'S HOW I PIMP THESE HOES >;] *puts the powder on the pimp hand*
DOWN TO BUSINESS.
I WAS GOING TO MAKE A POST ENTITLED "LAME ASS B*SH PART 2 THE SEQUEL" TO MY LAMENESS IN MY PREVIOUS BLOG, BUT I DECIDED NOT TO.
1.. IT IS MY BLOG, BUT DAMN IF I WANT TO GET THAT PERSONAL.
2.. I HAD STUFF TO DO.
SO I'LL GIVE YOU GUYS THE BLURB.
"WHAT HAPPENED AS THE STORY UNFOLDED WITH MUPPET WAS THAT I WASN'T THE ONLY VICTIM. MUPPET HAD HIS EYE OUT FOR ALL OF THE McDONALDS CREW. YUCK!!
WHAT A DICK.
BUT STILL, IT'S NOT LIKE I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT I WAS GETTING INTO, ITS JUST THAT I THOUGHT I COULD BE SUPERMAN AND SAVE A HOE."
AHA
GUESS NOT.
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. I HAVE GOOD NEWS.
AFTER MY NEAR BREAKDOWN AT MY JOB..[thats when they told me the juicy bossip ;)]
I CAME UP WITH A PLAN TO MAKE THAT BOYS' LIFE A LIVING HELL.
..THAT WENT OUT THE WINDOW THOUGH, TOO MUCH TIME AND EFFORT GOES INTO THAT SHIT ...
A FRIEND DID ASK IF I WANTED HIM DEAD THOUGH! BUT I DIGRESS.
I REALIZED THAT THAT BOY.. THAT MUPPET IS JUST A PUPPET AND HIS BOYS AND HIS COMMUNITY ARE PULLING THE STRINGS. ITS NOT EVEN LIKE HE WAS BALLING OUT THE ASS, OR EVEN A HOT COMMODITY. HE'S JUST... ELMO :\
HE IS JUST A SAD PERSON WHO HAS NEVER BEEN LOVED AND USES THAT AS AN EXCUSE TO FUCK AROUND WITH GIRLS FEELINGS. ITS SAD BUT I HAVE NO REMORSE FOR A COWARD. EVEN AFTER IT WAS FOUND OUT HE WAS A JERK HE AVOIDED THE PLACE..
***PUSSY!***
I DIGRESS AGAIN!!
BACK TO GOOD NEWS
I FINALLY GOT MY PHONE!! YESS NIGGA YESSS!!!!!!! *pharrell voice*
THE enV3 ..
BOW IN THE PRESENCE OF GREATNESS.
FUNNY FUNNY.. MY LITTLE SISTER HAS THE enV, THE OLDEST HAS THE enV2, AND I HAVE THE enV3
HAHAHA WHAT A COINCIDENCE..
O_o
ANOTHER LITTLE PIECE OF DINGLE BERRYS FOR YOU GUYS TO ENJOY!
THIS ISN'T CERTAIN BUT I MIGHT ACTUALLY HAVE A LOVE INTEREST.
THAT LIKES ME BACK! *giggles like a little school girl*
tee heeee
I'M SO HYPE IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY!
*my plan to bring down muppet is going accordingly >:}*
...YEAH SO I'M EXTRA HYPE AND HAPPY AND HE'S SEXY AND HE LIVES RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER AND HE'S 6'2 AND OOOO *puts hand over chest and fans herself feverishly*
HUNNY CHILE HUNNY CHILE JUST THINKING ABOUT HIM!
BUT... I DIGRESS..
YET AGAIN!
THATS ENOUGHT OUT OF ME... I'M GOING TO GO PLAY SIMS 3 AND SEE IF I CAN BRING HOME A SUGAR DADDY FOR BIG MAMA
GO BIG GIRL!!!!!!
********toodles*******
9.5.09
Granma Got WiFi
I came up here to Mt. Burnin to visit my Grandmother.
Havent been to her apartment since her birthday in June.
& I've been saying I was gonna come spend time with her for a minute now.
SO Im finally here
YAAY!.
I got lost.
and rode the good ol' bus with alot of old people.
YUM!
..Being with her brings back nostalgic feelings.
She always always ALWAYS has her place in check. No matter the circumstances of the actual building. *i.e. Roaches, Crackheads, Dirty lil' Hood Booger kds.
Her place looks like something out of a Martha Stewart Magazine. {does she even have one?}
I had the feelings of when I was younger n me and my siblings all came down for either the weekends or spend the summer with her.
It was definetly hell, when we were younger but looking back. It was definetly worth it.
Have You Noticed that, people who spent alot of time with thier GRandparents or Older Folk in genereal.
Tend to have actual "Common Sense"
I noticed that in most of the people who I know who are good at thier job, or give really good advice, or are just IDK... wiser than their age, have grown up around their elders.
It says alot. I mean when I was younger I used to DRED going to visit G-ma... cause she was miserable.. :\
but now that I'm older I see why she used to act like that and it touches ma heart :]
...Via
G-Ma WiFi.
MacBook.
Havent been to her apartment since her birthday in June.
& I've been saying I was gonna come spend time with her for a minute now.
SO Im finally here
YAAY!.
I got lost.
and rode the good ol' bus with alot of old people.
YUM!
..Being with her brings back nostalgic feelings.
She always always ALWAYS has her place in check. No matter the circumstances of the actual building. *i.e. Roaches, Crackheads, Dirty lil' Hood Booger kds.
Her place looks like something out of a Martha Stewart Magazine. {does she even have one?}
I had the feelings of when I was younger n me and my siblings all came down for either the weekends or spend the summer with her.
It was definetly hell, when we were younger but looking back. It was definetly worth it.
Have You Noticed that, people who spent alot of time with thier GRandparents or Older Folk in genereal.
Tend to have actual "Common Sense"
I noticed that in most of the people who I know who are good at thier job, or give really good advice, or are just IDK... wiser than their age, have grown up around their elders.
It says alot. I mean when I was younger I used to DRED going to visit G-ma... cause she was miserable.. :\
but now that I'm older I see why she used to act like that and it touches ma heart :]
...Via
G-Ma WiFi.
MacBook.
28.10.08
Nothing Last Forever.
It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
[Bridge]
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
[Chorus]
Everyday
With every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
And nothing lasts forever,
But be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
[Bridge]
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
[Chorus]
Everyday
With every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
And nothing lasts forever,
But be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too
Reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you
Find somewhere to place
The blame,
But until then the fact remains...
[Chorus]
Everyday
With every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Everyday
With every worthless word
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
And nothing lasts forever,
But be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both
I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know
[Bridge]
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you
[Chorus]
Everyday
With every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
And nothing lasts forever,
But be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
[Bridge]
If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe
[Chorus]
Everyday
With every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
And nothing lasts forever,
But be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too
Reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you
Find somewhere to place
The blame,
But until then the fact remains...
[Chorus]
Everyday
With every word whispered
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
Everyday
With every worthless word
We get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
And nothing lasts forever,
But be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way
It Hurts.... but it may be the only way.
I wanted to find a song that best describes how i feel and
sums up what happened between me and you last night.
but I think you've heard all of them.
Honestly if you want to really know where I'm coming from and how I see things.
Listen to St. Elsewhere and The Odd Couple.
read those lyrics.
I know its hard
don't think I don't know that.
don't think I refused to understand you or where you were coming from.
you are a strong person.
you tried to hold it together even though it was falling apart.
you don't find that quality in many people.
but sometimes... when the pieces are shattered.
its best to leave them and move on with ourselves.
instead of staying and getting ourselves hurt in the process.
you were passionate about it.
because you spent so much time invested in it.
you were cheated out of this because of childishness among us.
I have no problem saying I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for how it all happened and I'm sorry I ended up hurting you.
but you don't believe that it was my fault.
or that you didn't hurt me any less.
I didn't believe we were one mind.
I felt like my individuality was being suppressed because of what one person wanted to do.
I couldn't make a move without notifying someone in the group.
I don't like people clocking my every move. I am my own person and I don't have to tell anyone what I do, when I'm doing it or how I'm doing it.
If I believe it won't benefit you, why say anything?
unless I feel like it is something serious, why bother.
when I say that I don't mean to say your unimportant.
that's just the kind of person I am.
you have to understand and not twist around what I'm saying to mean something else.
to mean a hidden message.
when I speak I mean exactly what I say.
I know why this happened.
and it was from awhile back that those feelings were vested.
they were already there and the time came to let them out.
but instead of saying the real reason.
it was blamed on a boy.
point blank.
everything centered around him.
why?
you were my friend.
I wouldn't do you like that.
why didn't you just come to me
that day?
why didn't you just say hello??
whatever you had to do why didn't you just come to me that day.
you never told me, when it happened
how u felt
so I didn't believe I was doing anything wrong
[and i still don't]
I wasn't aware that my actions had hurt you.
because it was said to me in the form of a joke.
believe me when I say this.
I believe in you. I believe you can become something great
I believe you are a true person and a passionate person
someone worth the time of another who will love you deeply with no inhibitions.
don't be scared to let go.
letting go helps us grow and change.
change isn't overrated.
how can we evolve into the person we are meant to be if we continue to hold onto
things that become damaging?
its hard to.
but I've learned that nothing last forever.
every thing must change.
willingly or not.
you cant force change because then it becomes premeditated.
in the back of your mind your always saying "I have to be different"
just let things flow, know when its time.
I truly missed you.
and you were more than special to me.
I put it on everything.
I know you will be more than what you think your meant for.
Love Always...
Sasha.
sums up what happened between me and you last night.
but I think you've heard all of them.
Honestly if you want to really know where I'm coming from and how I see things.
Listen to St. Elsewhere and The Odd Couple.
read those lyrics.
I know its hard
don't think I don't know that.
don't think I refused to understand you or where you were coming from.
you are a strong person.
you tried to hold it together even though it was falling apart.
you don't find that quality in many people.
but sometimes... when the pieces are shattered.
its best to leave them and move on with ourselves.
instead of staying and getting ourselves hurt in the process.
you were passionate about it.
because you spent so much time invested in it.
you were cheated out of this because of childishness among us.
I have no problem saying I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for how it all happened and I'm sorry I ended up hurting you.
but you don't believe that it was my fault.
or that you didn't hurt me any less.
I didn't believe we were one mind.
I felt like my individuality was being suppressed because of what one person wanted to do.
I couldn't make a move without notifying someone in the group.
I don't like people clocking my every move. I am my own person and I don't have to tell anyone what I do, when I'm doing it or how I'm doing it.
If I believe it won't benefit you, why say anything?
unless I feel like it is something serious, why bother.
when I say that I don't mean to say your unimportant.
that's just the kind of person I am.
you have to understand and not twist around what I'm saying to mean something else.
to mean a hidden message.
when I speak I mean exactly what I say.
I know why this happened.
and it was from awhile back that those feelings were vested.
they were already there and the time came to let them out.
but instead of saying the real reason.
it was blamed on a boy.
point blank.
everything centered around him.
why?
you were my friend.
I wouldn't do you like that.
why didn't you just come to me
that day?
why didn't you just say hello??
whatever you had to do why didn't you just come to me that day.
you never told me, when it happened
how u felt
so I didn't believe I was doing anything wrong
[and i still don't]
I wasn't aware that my actions had hurt you.
because it was said to me in the form of a joke.
believe me when I say this.
I believe in you. I believe you can become something great
I believe you are a true person and a passionate person
someone worth the time of another who will love you deeply with no inhibitions.
don't be scared to let go.
letting go helps us grow and change.
change isn't overrated.
how can we evolve into the person we are meant to be if we continue to hold onto
things that become damaging?
its hard to.
but I've learned that nothing last forever.
every thing must change.
willingly or not.
you cant force change because then it becomes premeditated.
in the back of your mind your always saying "I have to be different"
just let things flow, know when its time.
I truly missed you.
and you were more than special to me.
I put it on everything.
I know you will be more than what you think your meant for.
Love Always...
Sasha.
2.8.08
ILY My Auntie <3
So around last week or so my auntie had to have surgery on her parts that make the world go round :]
she had a hernia
and they took it out.
couple days later she started feeling short of breathe... brushed it off at first. but then later on decided to got to the hospital to see what was going on.
The doctors checked her over and came up witht the prognosis that she had a bloodclot in her lungs and it should be dealt with immediately.
She was in the hospital for like mad long and afterwards came over to our house to chill with her lil sister and her nieces and nephews... :] ME.. and sumra and seth... maybe kingston iono.
I just have to say this..
my Aunt Bridgette is a trooper.
she knows so many things about everything that you'd feel like a piece of cardboard if you were to ever battle her. especially with health and things of that nature.
Yadda yadda yaddda getting to the point. I just wanted to say that I L-O-V-E you
and I know that the homie J.C. and the O.G. upstairs is looking over you and wouldn't let anything happen to you that you couldn't build from, and make yourself stronger than you
already are! <3.>
I wish I could come up there today to see you but Masa Ronald would cut off my leg if eyez tries to escape....yazzum. [hehehe]
Shout out to the whole Mt.Burning crew.
G-ma a.k.a Graham Crackerz [She gets it crakalating. U dig U Shmell?]
Auntie B. a.k.a "a who left this nassi doo doo crumb panty innah di bathtroom..."
[buss it babay!!]
Khali a.k.a DJ Khaled [she taking over...one myspace at a time]
and Cole a.k.a Suge Knight [he's one bad mamma jamma]
Peace and grease
xoxoxo...
p.s.
[forgot to headline the last post... n u can all suck it goddammit ]
p.p.s
[PLATTSBURGH can lick hairy webos...]
she had a hernia
and they took it out.
couple days later she started feeling short of breathe... brushed it off at first. but then later on decided to got to the hospital to see what was going on.
The doctors checked her over and came up witht the prognosis that she had a bloodclot in her lungs and it should be dealt with immediately.
She was in the hospital for like mad long and afterwards came over to our house to chill with her lil sister and her nieces and nephews... :] ME.. and sumra and seth... maybe kingston iono.
I just have to say this..
my Aunt Bridgette is a trooper.
she knows so many things about everything that you'd feel like a piece of cardboard if you were to ever battle her. especially with health and things of that nature.
Yadda yadda yaddda getting to the point. I just wanted to say that I L-O-V-E you
and I know that the homie J.C. and the O.G. upstairs is looking over you and wouldn't let anything happen to you that you couldn't build from, and make yourself stronger than you
already are! <3.>
I wish I could come up there today to see you but Masa Ronald would cut off my leg if eyez tries to escape....yazzum. [hehehe]
Shout out to the whole Mt.Burning crew.
G-ma a.k.a Graham Crackerz [She gets it crakalating. U dig U Shmell?]
Auntie B. a.k.a "a who left this nassi doo doo crumb panty innah di bathtroom..."
[buss it babay!!]
Khali a.k.a DJ Khaled [she taking over...one myspace at a time]
and Cole a.k.a Suge Knight [he's one bad mamma jamma]
Peace and grease
xoxoxo...
p.s.
[forgot to headline the last post... n u can all suck it goddammit ]
p.p.s
[PLATTSBURGH can lick hairy webos...]
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